We are so glad that you found this site too! What you are feeling is very normal, but know that you are not alone, and you have found a very supportive community of people who are very knowledgeable about all things ApoE4. You should be commended for trying to learn as much as you can about what this all means for you. If you have any questions, please ask!
If you have not already found it, the Primer
that Stavia and other wise members have compiled is a great place to start to learn about ApoE4. There is a lot of information, so take your time, and again--ask any questions to the community.
Peace to you on your journey,