Natasha wrote:Sorry I haven't responded. Thanks to those who responded to me and for your warm welcome and suggestions.
I guess I said too much about Lyme, etc... I'll edit that out.
Surupe wrote:I’m starting Lexapro tomorrow and am taking 12mg of Trazadone at night to combat the anxiety. I feel like Trazidone is better than Valium but neither are great. It stresses me out to take these drugs but I’m losing my mind as it is.
Hugs, Surupe, from a 4/4 older sister (age 67) who wants to recognize your strength in reaching out to Natasha in the midst of your own pain. I once read a great memoir by a wonderful Irish author, Nuala O'Faolain, titled Almost There about how difficult the early years of the 50's can be for women. It starts out with a line I won't do justice to, but goes something like this: "I wish I had known when I turned 50 how wonderful my life would be at 60." Reading that in my early 50's, with a stressful job, a crazy (really) sister and a mother with dementia, I hoped that she was right. She was! I would rate the early 50's as at least as stressful for many women as puberty, with changes that are as head-spinning and difficult to figure out. Like you I found out that I had to treat the anxiety that I experienced, but eventually the causes of the anxiety had been resolved or my ability to reframe and respond to them had improved. None of that had anything to do with being ApoE 4/4--except maybe we have an ability to think deeply, to be a little too introspective and a little obsessive when we're searching for answers.Surupe wrote:... I have been denying the fact that I’ve had anxiety and depression for most of my life and upon reaching age 50, I couldn’t deny it any longer. I am 4/4 and freaked out that my memory loss, brain fog, faulty reasoning and lack of concentration is due to Alzheimer’s. I research the topic at least 2 hours daily because I’m so stressed about it... I’m starting Lexapro tomorrow and am taking 12mg of Trazadone at night to combat the anxiety. I feel like Trazidone is better than Valium but neither are great. It stresses me out to take these drugs but I’m losing my mind as it is...
You remembered my special ed. background! (And I remembered yours too. )Surupe wrote:NF52, we do have some things in common with our special ed backgrounds! Part of my stress is this insane job I have and the pressure I’m under. 70 hour workweeks with deadline after deadline ( I started a new Special Ed position 2 years ago) has been horrible for me. I didn’t realize how stress had been affecting my brain. Doc ordered some counseling for me which I will do promptly!
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